“Expect Nothing. Live frugally On Surprise.”
I write this entry following a weekend of visiting with J’s family-hanging out, eating, relaxing, catching up and saying goodbye for the next five months; which was a much needed hiatus from planning. Last minute logistics still remain, and there are still details to hash out.
Since this is both Jacob and my first attempted thru-hike, I do wonder if all the energy we’ve spent in this preliminary stage is in vain. The worries dissipate when I look back at the process, and think about how the minutia in the mosaic, the more intimate and intangible details are what we hinge our lives on.
Planning, itself, is part of the larger mosaic, a part of the process, but the joys and beauty come from elements of surprise in a single moment. We need the finer details to make a mosaic, but we need to step back and give the space of perspective to live and find joy and see beauty in the larger picture.
I want to carry with me, through the challenges and frustrations that come up, these sentiments, and remember, that this is a wonderful gift. This thru-hike, this honeymoon, this walk, is a gift.
As I enter into the final phase in this stage of the process, I’m both excited and nervous, anxious, and happy. Happy to live frugally, on surprise.